Amar Kotha bolte gele- prothomei ja bola jae ta holo আ"মা"র কথা mane MA r kotha orthat Amar suru e amar MA r theke - tai ei Bengali Blog bananor karon amar MA - Ma r uddesse or Ma r jonnoi blog ta suru korlam ... "আমার মা" likhte gele hoeto sesh hobena - tao jototuku amar pokkhe sombhob ami likhchi...
Suru kora jete pare - amar "মেয়েবেলা" theke ... "ছেলেবেলা" sobdota amar ekebarei pochondo na ... tai bohubitorkito holeo " মেয়েবেলা" kei beche nilam . Jai hok school er dingulo theke amar nijer mone pore ja - tate amar ma r amar Okkhorporichoy er koranor kothai sabar age mone pore-Horsh U - orthat "উ" lekha nie amake thenganor kotha ... likhte parchilam na .. tar jonno jotokhon na thik kore likhte perechi ma thengie geche ... sesh mesh thik kore lekha r por chuti peyechilam ... chotobela e ma ke mone hoto ma bodh hoe amar porom tomo satru ... choto choto bapare jhamela ... raag ...avimaan... anek incident mone pore jae ... jokhon ekhane eto dur theke bose ami amar sab rokom dukkho koste Ma ke miss kori ... sedin rasta te ekta chotto meye tar nijer dressing and hair style nie ma r sange jhamela korchilo - hotat kore amio fire gelam amar chotobela e ... school e Nacher prog e jokhon ma sajie dito ... ami vabtam amake dekhte khub baje lagche - baje sajgoj hoeche - school jaoar por teacher ra jokhon appriciate korten tokhon amar kanna thamto ar ami bujhtam je na ma hoeto thik amake kharap dekhanor jonno orom sajie daeni ... jate amake sabar moddhey alada dekha jae othoba dur thekeo chena jae - tai orom make up and dressing korie diechilo ... chul badha nie always jhamela hoto ma r sange...tai jotodin na ami nijer sab kichu korte para sikhechi totodin r chul badhar jhamelai rakhtam na ... ekdam choto kore chul kete felechilam ... kintu janina ekhono porjonto amar Ma r amake chul bedhe deoa pochondo hoena...tar karon janina ... chul er prosonge ar ekta kotha mone pore jae ... paan theke chun khoshlei amar ma amake Chuler Muthi dhore emon ekta shaking situation e fele dito je chokhe jol aste baddho ... se porasona thik kore na kora hok -- result berieche seta ante geche amar sange -- result ma r moner moto hoeni...rastatei darie ektu shaking effect ta die nito .. r ami kandte kandte bari astam.... tokhon raag hoto khub kosto o ... but segulo na korle je ami thik soja pothe jaoar chilam na - seta ekhon feel kori ...
Ma r sajgoj dekhe konodin e amar saj goj korar iche kortona -- tar karon obossoi amader conservetive and traditional family r chap- jekhane Holud ronger dhatutir prachurje je kono manushke dhaka die deoa jae ... ar harie jae nijer ostitto ... khub chotobela e jokhon kono occasion hoto or kothao jaoa hoto amar Baba Dadu ma ke nie jeto sekhane family r icon hisebe mane ga vorti oi holud ronger dhatuti jetake sab bangali ra Sona bolte ovvosto ... sei dhatu die prae mora ... amar kirom mone hoto amar sei sada sidhe simple Ma ke hotat Dhatobo kore dieche era... Baba ke ami konodin Shona chara anno kichu Ma ke gift o dite dekhini - ei sab karonei hoeto ami kirom oi sajgoj - meyeli bapargulo nijer theke dure sorie diechi ... jai hok ... meyeder opor ma der probhab thake anekta specially ei sajgoj ar jamakapor er bapare- kintu ami chotobela thekei erom bhabei nijeke ki kore bojhatam je Ma or Baba jeta na korbe -jeta korte baron korbe - jeta porte baron korbe - seta ami korbo or porbo ar tader permission niei mane tader ke convience koranor por .... tai kortam -r ekhono tai kori - ekhono porjonto life e 3-4 te incident chara amar Ma amar sab ku-kirti guloi janen...
Ekebare chotobela r kotha to karo mone thake na - tai ami amar
Mashi - Mama - Baba r kach theke jototuku jenechi - seta khub odvoot lage ekhon ... ami ekti Stonnopai Prani seta prove korar jonno ami amar ma ke amar Bon(younger sister) jonmanor ager din obdhi jaliechi - amar bon amar theke 5years choto .. so kotodin sei ottachar ami korechi nijer e vable obak lage ... amar ektu lojja sorom kom - tai esab bolte khub je lojja lagche or kharap lagche ta noe ... ami ei ghotona ta bollam tar karon ache ... ei ekonisto stonnopai prani hoar karone - amar ma tar career - job - sab chere dan - she was a Dancer ar Social Welfare Association e job o korten ... West Bengal Govt er job - charar karon AMI ... ekhon khub kharap lage... je amar jonno je sab chere diechilo ami take chere etodure- se tar career er dike na takie amar jonno sab chere diechilo - but ami mone hoe ekhanei here jai nijer kache jokhon nijeke Selfish mone hoe - but amar o kichu korar chilona - nijeke prove kora r nijer identity banano khub darkar hoe porechilo ... Creativity jotoku ami peyechi obossoi seta amar Ma r Baba r thekei ... Ma ke ami dekhechi nijer design kora goena banate - selai kore table cloth - drawing - chotobela e jotoku naach sikhechi setao ma r jonnoi - gaan setao ma - drawing setao ma r amar pechone lege thakar karone ... or else ki hotam janina ... o ha ranna r kotha to bolai hoeni - amar Ma r moto ranna keo korte parena ( eta jodio sabai bole ) . kintu amar ma ritimoto ranna r contest jete - Sanondate (a leading bengali women magazine in westbengal) publish hoe ami etotai Proud hoe jai esab nie - after all amar Ma ... ar tai ami tar Meye hote perechi - janina sujoggo or ojoggo - but etai sotti ... ami ranna korar try kori - but ekhono porjonto oi Macher jhol ta chara ar kichu ma r moto kore ranna korte parini ...
Ma ke jokhon prothom bondhu hisebe pelam tokhon Ma r anno ar ekta rup dekhlam ... prothom prem e pora ... sei onvutitao prothom ma r sangei share korechilam .. tar age obdhi amar ma chilo amar jonno sab theke chap er bapar - erom o hoeche je ami amar school college er friend der beshi biswas kore ma ke Kandiechi...kono ekta incident er jonno ma hurt hoechilen.... setar jonno amar hoeto khoma chaoa uchit but chaite parini... jai sei prothom premer aghat - tokhon jodi Ma ke ami na pase petam abar uthe darano possible hoto kina janina ... Ma r sange to sei jonmanor ager thekei ekta relation toiri hoe jae .... kintu kokhono setar amra morjada dite pari kokhono parina --- ami o korechi serom anek kichui ... kintu emon anek situation life e eseche jokhon hoeto mone hoe Ma chara prithibite ar kono option nei ... Bhai ke hariechi ... jake ami amar ekmatro Atmio bole mone kortam " Atmar Kache Je" sei to atmio ... but i lost him ... Dadu ( amar ma r baba ) r sange amar khub close relation chilo hotat ekdin Dadu o chole gelen...Dadu chole jaoar news tao ami prothom Ma ke diechilam - sedin je kosto ta ami feel korchilam seta mone hoe khub kom manush ke life e face korte hoe ...
Anek har - jit dekhechi face korechi - but max time ei ami ma ke petam pase- kokhon amar maths er teacher lagbe theke kokhon amake dr er kache nie jete hobe sab e ma ke dekhechi korte ... joutho poribar e borohoechi kichuta - khub samne theke dekhechi - joutho poribar er problem gulo - abar jokhon amra sudhu 4jon mane ami-bon-baba-ma thakte suru korlam tokhon abar annorokom vabe peyechi amar ma ke ... majhe majhe Dosovuja bolte iche kore--but Doso na Bisho ... seta nie doubt theke jae... tai ekhono ami amar Soilpik drishti die Ma ke define korte parlam na ... khub kothin ... anek bar chesta koreo parini ... ami prae 2 and half year Ma ke chara... kintu er age eto ta somoe erom kore Ma ke chere thakini ... tai ekhono jokhon khub kosto hoe - khub depressed thaki - chap e thaki - mone hoe sei Stonnopai Prani hoegeli valo hoto ... kintu Ma amar kache - kokhono Ma- kokhono Bondho - kokhono Teacher - kokhono Dr/nurse - kokhono sudhui "Chintamoni" mane amake nie chinta korte korte uni ei Podobi laav korechen....
Ma r ajkaal khub Dida hote iche kore - mane Ma dekhte chan amader Motherhood - but setar jonno abar sei karo opor depend korte hobe - sei bhebe amar ekhono obdhi sei feelings ta share korar souvaggo hoe otheni ar uthbe kina janina ... ekhon amader ja life style tate amra sabai machine or khub beshi techy hoegechi - iche korleo anek somoe anek kichu kora somvob hoena ... Ma hoar moto onuvuti mone hoe ar duto nei ... sab theke boro creativity r porichoe ... ekta Pran er jonmo- take nijer haat e akar deoa - take ektu ektu kore boro kore tola - er theke boro creation ar ki hote pare ... amar mone prithibi r prottek Ma ke most Creative Person er khetab deoa uchit ... jodio ekhon anek nirmom - nirdoy Ma o dekha jae -- tar karon amar bojhar baire ... amar nijer Ma hoar iche r sange emon kichu incident jorie ache - ami janina infuture jodi kokhono Ma hote pari - tahole segulor ans ami jader deoar tader dite parbo kina ... Ma r opor anek rokom ottyachar hote ami dekhechi - oi joutho poribarer problem ... segulo amar face korte voe kore ... ek to kacher karo theke aghat paoa r natun kore karo sange sab kichu natun kore suru kora - duto khetrei amar bhoe lage...ami nijeke jotoi sahoshi proman korar chesta kori - kotota ei jagagulote hote perechi ami janina .... sei "Ghor pora goru jemon sidure megh dekhle voe pae " . kintu ami jani - ei feelings tao jodi keo bujhte pare - se amar Ma e hoben....r karo pokkhe seta bojha somvob na ... ekta meye mone hoe tokhon e complete hoe jokhon se MA hote pare... r jodi se amar Ma r moto Ma hoe ...tahole hoeto r Prithibir soptom aschorjor r darkar hotona .... Janina - amar lekhata Ma kobe porar time pabe... but etai amar nijer confession sabar kache... aj porjonto sab somoe atleast nijer kache r Ma r kache mone prane clear thakar chesta korechi....r seta jeno infuture o korte pari ....
Missing you Ma...
